Happy New Year!

2014 is nearly over, which means 2015 is approaching. I can't believe how fast this year has gone!

At the beginning of the year, i made resolutions such as 'learn to drive' and 'get a full time job'. Both great resolutions, but ones that weren't achievable for me. Of course, I didn't know they weren't going to be achievable at the time.
This year hasn't been a great year for me in all honesty, my POTS has progressively got worse, which has left me housebound and unable to work for the majority of the year. I also experienced losing someone very close to me, 

Life can throw all sorts your way, but you have to learn to cope and get on with life, rather than constantly over think about what you could of changed, to prevent that thing from happening. You can't control some of the things that happen in life, which means you need to take each day as it comes and make the most of every second.
I've spent my year worrying and stressing over many things, which meant i missed a few opportunities and good things that came my way. 

I must admit, i cringe a little bit when people say 'new year, new me!' 
But a new year is a clean slate, a chance to leave a few things behind in 2014, and focus on what we're going to change in 2015 to make it a better year. 
I'm going to try and go about things a different way, look on the positive side of things rather than see the negative. I may not have physically achieved much this year, but i've changed so much mentally, I've suffered with anxiety and panic attacks for many years, all because of POTS and how horrible it makes me feel and how scary it all is sometimes. My anxiety may come and go, and at times it may be worse that others. But all the things i worry about are out of my control. My stepdad always says 'worry about the controllable, not the uncontrollable.' Like i said before, some things life throws at us we have no control over, but that doesn't mean we don't have control over the year. If you want a good year, change the way you think, do those things you've always wanted to do rather than wait around for it to happen, and be realistic! Try not to be afraid of doing the things that scare you, as it may end up being one of the best things you've ever done.

I've learnt not to take things for granted, as with POTS i am now limited to what i can do. But i'm going to focus on what i can do rather than what i can't. Focus on getting stronger, and accept that i may need a bit of help every now and then when i'm having a few bad days, rather than try and do it all myself. 

This year has made me so grateful for all the things i'm lucky enough to have, i have the most amazing friends and family, who are so supportive of everything.
I've met so many amazing people online this year, through blogging, youtube, and twitter.

I hope you all have a great New Years, make sure you fill your year full of love, laughter and happiness, and whatever life throws at you, hopefully your year will still be great!

'Tomorrow is the first blank page of a 365 page book, write a good one!'

Love to you all & Happy New Year!

Urban Decay Naked Palette



I know, there's plenty of reviews on this palette already, but i'm only just getting round to trying it out! I've heard nothing but good things about the Urban Decay Naked Palette, so i thought it was about time i bought one and tried it out myself. 
I bought this from Feel Unique, for £37. 
This palette is filled with 12 gorgeous neutral shadows, perfect for any occasion. There's a range of shimmer, matte, satin and sparkle shadows, which makes this palette anything but boring, and it can take you from day to night.

It comes in a lovely velvet packaging, with NAKED written across the front in gold foil, a double ended brush which is great for applying shadow, and also blending, and a mirror on the inside.
The colour glides on my lid so easily, these shadows are so pigmented and the colour stays on the lid.
They are easily blended, and it's so easy to build up the colour. It also doesn't crease. I have hooded lids, which makes it difficult for me to make eye shadow work, but blending one of the darker colours into my crease really works in making it look deeper, and opening my eyes.

These are the shade descriptions listed on the feel unique website:

Virgin: Cool Pale Beige Shimmer
Sin: Champagne Shimmer
Naked: Nude Matte
Sidecar: Beige Shimmer with Silver Micro-Glitter
Buck: Fawn Brown Matte
Half Baked: Golden Bronze Shimmer
Smog: Deep Coppery Bronze Shimmer
Darkhorse: Deep Mocha Shimmer
Toasted: Antique Copper Penny Shimmer
Hustle: Plum-Brown Satin
Creep: Onyx Shimmer with Gold Sparkle
Gunmetal: Dark Metallic Gray Shimmer with Silver Micro-Glitter




I really like using Buck to fill in my eyebrows, the matte shadow is the perfect shade to match. 
Virgin is a great highlighter, i mainly use this in the inner corners of my eye, and also too highlight my brow bone.

My favourites in this palette would have to be, Sin, Half Baked, Darkhorse and Toasted.

Have you tried the Urban Decay Naked Palette?
What do you think? And what's your favourite shades to use?

Feelin' Festive




























I've been getting into the Christmas spirit by decorating the house with my family. Everywhere is looking very festive, and so i'm struggling to contain my excitement for Christmas!
 This year i've decided to do Blogmas. I will be attempting to blog every day in December, i'm really looking forward to it, expect many christmassy themed posts, as well as reviews and outfit of the days.
I hope everyone is getting into the christmas spirit like me!

Christmas is my favourite time of the year, i just love the atmosphere and how happy everyone is!
What's everyones favourite thing about Christmas?

Trying To Stay Positive


I always try and stay positive whenever I have POTS flare ups, but this past month has been extremely difficult for me to do so. It started last month when my heart rate reached a 175 bpm which is extremely high considering i'm on medication to slow it down. I ended up calling myself an ambulance as i really started to panic, and as i explained in a previous post, it was a chest infection that caused it. 
Just over a week ago, i came down with a nasty cold, pretty much as soon as i got over the chest infection, a cold is not very pleasant for anyone, but for me it hit really hard, and a few days into this cold, i'd already lost nearly 8lbs, and one evening, i ended up passing out, a few times an hour, so my mum rang for paramedics, I was extremely dehydrated, even though i had drank 2 litres of water that day, so they took me to hospital and put me on a drip to rehydrate me. I definitely felt better, and i got to go home after 2 bags of fluid, even though i was still passing out everytime i stood up!

Since then, im nearly recovered, i'm left with a tickly cough, but i'm definitely better than i was! I'm still fainting occasionally, but i seem to be recovering much quicker from them!
However all of this, has really triggered off my anxiety and panic attacks, to the point where i've been too scared to be left alone incase i pass out and don't have the energy to pick myself up!
But I know i'll get through this, it's just a difficult time, i know i'll have many ups and downs with this illness and i just need to think of the ups and know that i will get through this.

I'm really excited that it's now December, unfortunately i've been too poorly to join in with all the festive activities! Yesterday i went out with my mum, stepdad and sister to buy some christmas decorations, and i fainted in the queue! It's safe to say i'm left very bruised!

But yesterday evening i managed to help my family decorate the tree in the living room, and i also managed to decorate my bedroom! 
I will be doing a blog post on all the festive decorations around my house at some point this week! 


Much love to you all! 

Oversized Denim


I've had such a lovely, chilled out day today, just how Sundays should be! 
I've spent it wondering around the village i live in. 



This tartan scarf i purchased on eBay for £5! Bargain!


My denim jacket is one of a kind, and a prized, sentimental possession of mine, as it belonged to my dad. Not only does it look great oversized, it holds a very special place in my heart!


This watch I picked up from a gift shop in Dymchurch for £7, it's amazing what you can pick up in gift shops and charity shops, for such a little price! 

Hope everyone is has had a lovely weekend! 

Clinique Take The Day Off Balm - Review


I bought this cleansing balm a few months ago, after hearing amazing reviews. 
And i am so pleased i did, as it's the best cleanser i've ever used. 
I wish i tried this sooner! It does such a brilliant job of taking off my makeup! 

It's a solid balm, that melts to an oil when you apply it to your skin,  I was quite worried about this at first, considering i already have oily skin, i didn't want it any oilier, but it thoroughly cleanses my face and leaves my skin feeling soft and silky with no residue. 
I use this once in the morning, and twice in the evening to make sure my skin is thoroughly cleansed. I massage this onto dry skin, and then use a warm wet flannel to remove my make up, cleanse my face, and then I pat dry. 

This cleanser is suitable for all skin types, which is great as I have combination skin. I suffer with an oily t-zone, with dry cheeks and nose. I also have very sensitive, red skin.
It does not irritate my skin or my eyes at all, it leaves my skin feeling clean, fresh and silky. It also doesn't leave my face feeling dry and tight, which i find happens with a lot of cleansers i've tried. 
I paid £22 for this, which some people might find expensive for a cleanser, but it lasts ages, and it's worth every penny in my opinion. 

I've seen a dramatic difference in my skin since using this, and it didn't take long for the results to start showing! After using this once, my skin felt smooth, and after a week my skin was so much clearer, and also less red and irritated. It has such a calming effect on my skin which is what i've been needing, especially after a day of wearing make up, I don't want to be scrubbing away trying to get it all off and causing more damage and irritation to my skin, so this cleanser is perfect, as i only have to gently massage this in and wipe away, and the majority of my make up is gone!

I highly recommend this cleanser! 

I've Been Thinking...

Sorry it's been a few weeks since i've posted! 
I've been capable of doing alot more recently, but been suffering with brain fog! So I thought it was best to not post, as i probably wouldn't of made any sense. 
But i've started to write a few back up posts, so when i'm not feeling well enough to write, i'll already have one saved that i can post for you!

So as 2015 is approaching fast, I started thinking of what i've accomplished this year. 
Even though i've had POTS for a few years, I was only diagnosed in January, and the majority of my year has been very difficult learning how to cope with it. I found that small things have been really hard for me to do this year in comparison to the last few years, i've found even the smallest things like going for coffee with friends difficult, some days i even found sitting up in bed difficult. Which made me realise that I haven't really accomplished anything this year - wait, let me rephrase that, I haven't accomplished anything that i had planned too accomplish. 
I was hoping to be working full-time this year, but instead i had to give up work completely, I also planned to visit my family in Holland, but i can barely travel to town, let alone a different country!

But then i really got thinking, and i may not have accomplished what i thought i would of accomplished, but it doesn't mean this year was a waste of a year! 
I've learnt alot, i've learnt (and i'm still learning) how to cope with this illness, I've learnt not to take the simple things for granted. And because it's really hard to plan for the future, whether its in 2 years time or even a few days time, i've learnt to live in the moment, and really make the most of the moment.
I've also come to terms with the fact that for me, small accomplishments are big ones, and i shouldn't kick myself for failing to do something, as long as i get back up and try and do it again another day. 

I feel that because things are becoming clear mentally, it's actually helping me physically, as whenever i have a bad day, i don't let it get me down, because i know a good day is on the horizon.
The week during my symptom diary was actually one of the worst weeks i've had in a while, but this week has been one of the best! 
I try not to have expectations on my day, so i don't get disappointed, and it's really helped.
Even when i was feeling okay, i used to constantly worry about when my symptoms could get bad, and stop myself from doing anything incase it made me feel ill. Whereas now I try to make the most of feeling okay, and deal with my symptoms when they come. 
I think thats what will help me in the future, i can actually start living, instead of constantly wasting my good days over thinking and worrying about feeling unwell. 

I'm slowly starting to build up my strength and stamina. I used to enjoy long walks as i live in the country. But since having POTS i've really struggled walking, as i get so tired easily, But i've started going for short walks again with my mum, hoping to go a little bit further every time, and today i nearly managed a mile! It was such a beautiful walk, and as i've not been outside as much as i would of liked to this year, I find i appreciate my surroundings so much more now.

I'm still trying to find the right balance between pushing myself, but not pushing myself too hard that it wears me out so much i'm bed ridden for the next few days.
Overall, I'm really happy at the moment, no one knows what the future holds, which is scary, but also exciting at the same time, but it means we need to make the most of the great things in life that we are lucky to have. 
I have the most amazing family & friends, i may struggle to do simple things that others can do easily, but i still have my life, and a roof over my head, and unfortunately there's many people that don't even have that. 

This post has got a little bit deep, but it's what i've been thinking about a lot recently. I'm not sure if there's even a point to this post, but thank you so much for reading, I hope everyone is well. 
I'll leave you with a few of the lovely pictures I took from my walk today!






Symptom Diary - Collab Post with Tania!


Hello everyone!

I hope you've all had a lovely week. Mine unfortunately hasn't been too great - still very unwell! But i'm plodding along, hoping it'll all go away and i can experience at least one good day very soon!

So i've realised that thanks to the internet and social media, such as twitter, it's very easy to interact and meet people anywhere in the world, which has been fantastic for me, as i've met some lovely other people who also suffer with a chronic illness. One of them being the wonderful Tania, who hasn't yet had a POTS diagnosis but is showing all the symptoms. I'd recommend to go over to her blog here, and read her Symptom Diary.

We've decided to join forces and create a post for you all, explaining how up and down symptoms of POTS can be, how we can be coping one minute, and be very poorly the next. It's very hard to get that across unless you were to live with someone for a week and see how hard even the simplest of things can be for them. So we both decided to do a symptom diary!

Before I start i'd like to say that these are just my symptoms, it isn't the same for all people with POTS. We all suffer with it in different forms of severity, some people have it midly, others are severely disabled. My symptoms are very up and down, but they never fully go away, i do have days where i'm very close to feeling like i'm a normal person, whereas some people don't even get those days.

I mentioned in my last post, that I had a really good day on Friday the 3rd, but it resulted in a horrible night, so i've started my symptom diary with that day, and then i've skipped a week, and will write my symptoms every day this week. So here goes! (Sorry it's so long!)

Friday 3rd October:
I've had a really great today, i didn't do too much so i could save my energy as i was meeting a friend that evening for Starbucks. Potsies like to use the '3 day rule' we need the day before to save up energy, and the day after to recover. 
I met up with my friend and had a lovely time, I lasted an hour without feeling unwell, and even felt okay when i got home. However because I'd had a great day, it resulted in a terrible night. I was suffering - fast heart rate, i had palpitations that felt like i was being punched in the chest from the inside, such little energy, couldn't even walk to the bathroom which is next to my bedroom.
Later on in the evening i felt like i was going to be sick, I had a migraine, eye pain, face pain, severe cramping in my legs and still a pounding heart. I finally managed to get some sleep at around 3am.

Friday 10th October:
Today I woke up feeling great, I even managed to do a good few hours of housework! Yay! But a productive morning meant i spent the rest of the afternoon laying on the sofa flicking through the music channels with little energy.
I felt much better by the early evening and got to spend some time with my family, watching tv and chatting in the living room.
Later that evening, i felt sick, had very bad stomach pains, was struggling with my breathing, and had ear and throat pain (not sure if this pain is still from the past few infections)
I didn't cope too well with the pain tonight, just laid in bed, watched TV and cried a little until it went away. 
It didn't take too long to go away, luckily! But i still missed out on one of my best friends 21st birthday celebrations - luckily she's an amazing friend and was totally understanding.

Saturday 11th October:
Woke up feeling okay, a little bit nauseous. 
It took me 4 hours to get ready today, as i kept needing breaks to lay down as i was so tired. After i got ready i was too exhausted to do anything more.
Around 4pm, i was struggling with a thumping heart, it felt like i was being punched again, i felt so dizzy and breathless and laying down didn't ease my symptoms like it usually does. I was very close to asking my mum to take me to hospital tonight, but i decided to wait and see if it passed, luckily it did.
An hour later my heart was thumping again, could feel my heart beat in most parts of my body. I was desperate for the toilet but was too scared to stand up, once i managed to get to the toilet, I could see my tshirt obviously moving where my heart was beating so fast, got back into bed, now with a headache, and feeling even more sleepy.

Sunday 12th October:
Woke up feeling very tired, but much much better compared to the night before. Managed to get up, and eat breakfast without any problems other than a little bit of dizziness and nausea. Suffering with very bad brain fog today though - for those of you that don't know, brain fog is a feeling of being spaced out, lacking concentration, forgetfulness, and generally not feeling with it. 
I didn't suffer with many symptoms today, other than the usual dizziness whilst standing which never fully goes away. And I had a really productive fun day, tidied my room, and had a bath and pamper session to make myself feel a bit better. 
Had a really nice evening, chilling and catching up with X Factor!

Monday 13th October:
Today I woke up feeling super tired, but had enough energy to hoover the living room. I had my friend, Claire, who recently turned 21 come over, as i missed her birthday celebrations, I wasn't much fun as i was really tired and had no energy, which sucks, because i rarely get to see her as she's at uni. But i've got hope that by christmas when she comes back, I'll manage to get out for the day with her. Even though i wasn't feeling great, i still had such a lovely time seeing her! I'm still having trouble with a fast heart today, usually with the medication i'm on my resting pulse is around 78, and 100 on standing. But today my resting pulse was around the 94-100 mark. 
I had therapy in the evening. I was feeling better before i left, but a 5 minute walk and car journey completely zonked me out, and by the time i was called in for my appointment, i was so weak and dizzy, I was even struggling to speak. Luckily I have a really understanding and lovely therapist who said it's best for me to go home!
I went straight to bed when i got in, and after a bit of a nap and rest, I didn't feel too bad, and managed to enjoy the rest of my evening taking things easy.

Tuesday 14th October:
I had a really good sleep, slept in till 10.30am but still could sleep for many more hours. Not feeling too bad today, other than a nasty cough i've woken up with (i blame the weather)
So I've had some laptop time, snuggled up in bed with my electric blanket on too keep me from freezing!
In the evening, I had another terrible night, my heart was racing, i felt very wheezy (I also have asthma) and I also had horrendous stomach pain that was stopping me from getting to sleep.

Wednesday 15th October:
I woke up today still with a bit of stomach pain, but other than that not feeling too bad. After i made myself some breakfast i went back upstairs for a lie down, a few hours later my mum came home from work, and i made it downstairs to sit and have a chat and some lunch and a cuppa with her. 
I felt much better after seeing my mum, it really breaks up the day when she comes home for lunch, and after that i even felt well enough to do a bit of tidying, so i done a bit in the kitchen and tidied my room, i then managed to have a long bath, i don't get to have a long bath often as it makes me feel too dizzy! Then I went to bed still with a bit of stomach pain, but i'd say overall i had a really good day.

Thursday 16th October:
Now because i had a good day yesterday, it meant today i suffered, i was pretty much bed ridden all day with the usual symptoms, headache, palpitations, dizziness, breathlessnes, brain fog, aching everywhere. Didn't sleep till 5am the next morning as i was so uncomfortable.

Friday 17th October:
Still bed ridden! Been suffering with a migraine along with nausea, and also dizziness and stomach pain.
But in the early evening I managed to go downstairs and watch 2 movies with my family! It felt so so good to have company, and actually be out of my bedroom. Tonight was one of the best nights sleep i've had all week.

Saturday 18th October:
I Woke up feeling quite energetic (compared to normal anyways) and decided to attempt a trip to town! I always try to push myself to do things even if i don't feel great, and when i got into town i started to feel awful, but i decided to push myself and go into at least one shop, i was with my mum as i don't go out on my own, mainly because its hard for me to do a lot by myself, but also because when my pots wasn't as bad, and i was managing to work, i collapsed at a bus stop and people just walked past as i laid on the floor struggling to even ask for help. A lovely lady did stop in the end, but since then i do worry it'll happen again. Today, I only managed one shop before i almost passed out, i'm so glad i didn't but i just felt so dizzy and not with it, i couldn't even see properly, or even speak properly without running out of breath!
I managed to get back to the car with the support of my mum, and as soon as i was home i had a little rest in bed. 
A few hours later i managed to tidy my room and enjoy the rest of my afternoon and evening. I also did some online shopping! I did a big health food shop as i've not properly been on my diet, mainly because i've not had the energy to actually stand and cook, and my family are at work and school all day. So it's been quick and easy foods for me.

Overall it's not been a fantastic week, but i'm still smiling, and still feeling happy, i'm just hoping next week will be a better one!!

Thankyou so much for reading till the end, i apologise for how long it was, i hope i didn't bore you all! I just really wanted to get across how difficult simple things can be for me. And also how i can change so quickly from feeling okay, too being very unwell! 
Alot of the time, not many people can tell how i'm feeling, as most potsies will put on a front and pretend everything is okay, as a way of coping. 
POTS is also an invisible illness, which means we look normal, there's no visual signs. 
If someone was too look at me they probably would never guess i had a chronic illness.

I would like to thank the lovely Tania for supporting me this week while i've not been feeling too great, be sure to have a look at her Symptom Diary and also her YouTube channel, where she also vlogs her hospital appointments and takes us all on her journey!
I also want to thank Shannyn, or POTSpeople on twitter, for also being there for me this week, and just in general. She's another POTS sufferer, and she's currently in hospital, but she still never stops smiling, she's so inspirational and she never fails to make me happy! I'm so lucky to have such an amazing friend, who understands, and can be so supportive even though she's miles and miles away. 

Thanks again for reading, it means a lot that there's people out there who's interested in what I have to say, even though they've never heard of this illess before. I love reading comments you leave, and will always reply!
I hope you're all keeping well, and i hope you enjoy the rest of your Sunday.
Remember to keep smiling!

Life can be hard, but i've learnt to always try and look at the positive side of things, always make sure the positives outweigh the negatives. Don't get me wrong, it's okay to breakdown, nobody can stay strong for too long, we're only human! But it's when you let even the tiny negative things affect you, try to remember that there are always positives in a situation, if you let the negative things in your life take over, you'll never be happy!
Happiness isn't about getting what you want, it's about loving what you have and being grateful for it.

Halloween Is Upon Us!

Hello!

Halloween is approaching fast, so i thought i'd share with you the hair and makeup i did last year! I know plenty of people who are much better at theatrical makeup than i am, however i still really love to experiment and Halloween is the perfect time to do so!

I spent the whole afternoon dressing up my little sisters, and doing their hair and makeup, and i'm hoping to do the same this year if i feel well enough!



We have a very unusual tree in our front garden, it looks beautiful at all times of the year, and during Autumn it's very bare which made it the perfect tree for Abbie to pose next to!
I wasn't sure what i was doing when it came to doing her makeup, i just improvised and wanted her to look as dark and creepy as possible! 




My other sister Shene, went trick or treating, so i decided to have a bit of fun! Again, i wasn't quite sure what i was doing, as i have no experience in theatrical makeup, but as you can see i tried to make her look very doll-like. I cut holes in her tights and put rags in her hair and around her arms. 
And I was quite pleased with how it came out!

They're the perfect models when it comes to this sort of thing, both so beautiful and great in front of the camera!

While i was studying beauty at college, we briefly did a theatrical makeup project which was very fun to do.
Has anyone seen The Corpse Bride? It's one of my favourite films, i'm a massive Tim Burton fan. 
I attempted half Victor/half Corpse Bride. I loved how it turned out, however if i was to do it again i would definitely do some things differently! But i didn't think it was too bad for my first attempt!


I hope everyone is well! And I hope you enjoyed this post, i'm not too sure what i'll attempt this Halloween, but i'm going to make sure i have alot of fun with it!

Liz Earle Botanical Shine Shampoo & Conditioner

I was looking through the Liz Earle website, looking for a cleanser, when i decided to have a look at the hair care. 
I came across the Botanical Shine Shampoo & Conditioner. 
I read through the reviews and most people were recommending them both.
There was only a choice of one shampoo, which was for all hair types, and the conditioner had a choice of normal hair, dry or damaged hair, or fine or oily hair. 
I decided to go for the one for fine or oily hair, as I have very thin hair that needs to be washed every day.

The problem I have with other shampoo and conditioners, is that the ones I have tried, have been very heavy and they've weighed my hair down, and with thin hair already, it's not ideal!

I've been colouring my hair since i was 14, so it's very damaged.
And after foolishly getting my hair cut very short at the age of 15, I've been trying to grow my hair ever since. So for 5 years I've only managed to get my hair to grow just above shoulder length. 
I've been desperate to find a new shampoo and conditioner, and I was on the hunt for a sulfate free shampoo.. so it wasn't so harsh on my hair and my scalp. This shampoo and conditioner has been very kind to both, it's definitely improved the condition of my hair.

They are both priced at £8.75 each for a 200ml tube, but a little of this goes a long way. 

It includes naturally active ingredients which include natural vitamin E, west african shea butter, which helps to moisturise, and apple and orange extracts to boost shine. 
The smell of the shampoo and the conditioner is incredible, I must say!


Since using both of these, i only have to wash my hair every 2-3 days, sometimes 4 with the help of my trusty bastiste dry shampoo! 

When i wash my hair, i wash it twice with the shampoo, but i only need to use a little bit. After i wash it, i apply the conditioner only to the ends of my hair and leave it for a few minutes. It has given my hair volume, and it's even grown to shoulder length! 

I'm not saying this will work for everyone, but its definitely worked for me and i'm very happy.
I will be buying this again!

I've now gone back to my natural colour, to give my hair a break. 
I've also been drinking lots more water & am now following a new diet. (see The Atkins Diet post)

So i'm hoping with the help of this shampoo and conditioner, and also a few lifestyle changes, my hair will be back to good condition and will hopefully start to grow.      

The Atkins Diet

So one of my many doctors have put me on the Atkins diet, which is a low carb, low sugar and low dairy diet. I will be eating mainly meat and veg. I started this diet about 2 weeks ago, the first week went great, I felt full of energy (compared to normal anyway), and even managed to walk around town for a few hours without needing to sit or lie down randomly on the floor in public. Yes, this happens quite a lot, but I've learnt not to care what others think, if I need to lay down in the aisle of Sainsburys while I wait for my mum to do her shopping, then that's what I shall do!


After the first week, something went wrong, I'm still not quite sure what happened, but I felt severely dizzy, I couldn't stand without falling, I had a horrendous headache and I could feel my heart pounding out of my chest, I felt so weak and breathless. I went to the doctor and my heart rate was 135bpm and wouldn't lower, considering i'm on a heart medication called ivabradine to slow down my heart rate, and I've not had as many problems with my heart rate being as high since i've been on the medication, the doctor didn't think that was right, and sent me to hospital so I could get checked out.
After many hours of waiting around, lots of prodding about with needles in attempt to get blood, sleeping and explaining to lots of different doctors what POTS was, they decided to keep me in for the night, to give me a few bags of fluids and see how I felt in the morning.
Considering hospitals are never a pleasant experience, I have to say I was very lucky and had brilliant doctors and nurses, they were very understanding and reassuring the whole time I was there.

That night I was told to stop the diet and just eat whatever I could, I was so weak and dizzy from not eating a lot that day, as the hospital didn't have any suitable food that I was allowed on this diet. (throughout that day, while they were carrying out different tests, all I had was sandwich fillings to eat)

I was looked after very well that night, and my mum and sister came to visit before I went to sleep. 
The worst experience of that night was when the nurse tried to put the cannula in my hand. She really struggled to find a vein (just like the nurse before when she was trying to take blood) and every time she put it in, my hand swelled up, was very painful, it looked like my hand was being blown up like a balloon!
Safe to say I was very left very bruised!


The night went slowly, but luckily I have amazing friends who were willing to stay up and text me throughout the night to keep me busy and take my mind off the pain.
I got about 3 hours sleep. 
In the morning the doctor came around, checked my heart rate, blood pressure, oxygen levels, and temperature, my heart rate and temperature was still quite high but anything serious was ruled out, and I was allowed to go home! yay!

When I was home and settled, I rang the doctor to ask if it was the diet that caused it, and it was a mix of POTS, the diet, and not drinking enough water in this heat.

I have to drink at least 3 litres of water a day to keep hydrated, along with lots of salt all over my food, to help with dizziness and low blood pressure. With this new diet, and the hot weather, I should of been drinking 4-5 litres of fluid a day, which I wasn't. 
I am going back on the diet in a few days, I will be drinking ALOT more water, and will be monitoring everything closely to prevent this from happening again!!

I am very glad to be home now, feeling much better, and now I'm getting about the house normally!


Hope everyone is having a lovely week so far! 

'Whenever you feel sad, just remember that there are billions of cells in your body, and all they care about is you'