Happy New Year!

2014 is nearly over, which means 2015 is approaching. I can't believe how fast this year has gone!

At the beginning of the year, i made resolutions such as 'learn to drive' and 'get a full time job'. Both great resolutions, but ones that weren't achievable for me. Of course, I didn't know they weren't going to be achievable at the time.
This year hasn't been a great year for me in all honesty, my POTS has progressively got worse, which has left me housebound and unable to work for the majority of the year. I also experienced losing someone very close to me, 

Life can throw all sorts your way, but you have to learn to cope and get on with life, rather than constantly over think about what you could of changed, to prevent that thing from happening. You can't control some of the things that happen in life, which means you need to take each day as it comes and make the most of every second.
I've spent my year worrying and stressing over many things, which meant i missed a few opportunities and good things that came my way. 

I must admit, i cringe a little bit when people say 'new year, new me!' 
But a new year is a clean slate, a chance to leave a few things behind in 2014, and focus on what we're going to change in 2015 to make it a better year. 
I'm going to try and go about things a different way, look on the positive side of things rather than see the negative. I may not have physically achieved much this year, but i've changed so much mentally, I've suffered with anxiety and panic attacks for many years, all because of POTS and how horrible it makes me feel and how scary it all is sometimes. My anxiety may come and go, and at times it may be worse that others. But all the things i worry about are out of my control. My stepdad always says 'worry about the controllable, not the uncontrollable.' Like i said before, some things life throws at us we have no control over, but that doesn't mean we don't have control over the year. If you want a good year, change the way you think, do those things you've always wanted to do rather than wait around for it to happen, and be realistic! Try not to be afraid of doing the things that scare you, as it may end up being one of the best things you've ever done.

I've learnt not to take things for granted, as with POTS i am now limited to what i can do. But i'm going to focus on what i can do rather than what i can't. Focus on getting stronger, and accept that i may need a bit of help every now and then when i'm having a few bad days, rather than try and do it all myself. 

This year has made me so grateful for all the things i'm lucky enough to have, i have the most amazing friends and family, who are so supportive of everything.
I've met so many amazing people online this year, through blogging, youtube, and twitter.

I hope you all have a great New Years, make sure you fill your year full of love, laughter and happiness, and whatever life throws at you, hopefully your year will still be great!

'Tomorrow is the first blank page of a 365 page book, write a good one!'

Love to you all & Happy New Year!

Urban Decay Naked Palette



I know, there's plenty of reviews on this palette already, but i'm only just getting round to trying it out! I've heard nothing but good things about the Urban Decay Naked Palette, so i thought it was about time i bought one and tried it out myself. 
I bought this from Feel Unique, for £37. 
This palette is filled with 12 gorgeous neutral shadows, perfect for any occasion. There's a range of shimmer, matte, satin and sparkle shadows, which makes this palette anything but boring, and it can take you from day to night.

It comes in a lovely velvet packaging, with NAKED written across the front in gold foil, a double ended brush which is great for applying shadow, and also blending, and a mirror on the inside.
The colour glides on my lid so easily, these shadows are so pigmented and the colour stays on the lid.
They are easily blended, and it's so easy to build up the colour. It also doesn't crease. I have hooded lids, which makes it difficult for me to make eye shadow work, but blending one of the darker colours into my crease really works in making it look deeper, and opening my eyes.

These are the shade descriptions listed on the feel unique website:

Virgin: Cool Pale Beige Shimmer
Sin: Champagne Shimmer
Naked: Nude Matte
Sidecar: Beige Shimmer with Silver Micro-Glitter
Buck: Fawn Brown Matte
Half Baked: Golden Bronze Shimmer
Smog: Deep Coppery Bronze Shimmer
Darkhorse: Deep Mocha Shimmer
Toasted: Antique Copper Penny Shimmer
Hustle: Plum-Brown Satin
Creep: Onyx Shimmer with Gold Sparkle
Gunmetal: Dark Metallic Gray Shimmer with Silver Micro-Glitter




I really like using Buck to fill in my eyebrows, the matte shadow is the perfect shade to match. 
Virgin is a great highlighter, i mainly use this in the inner corners of my eye, and also too highlight my brow bone.

My favourites in this palette would have to be, Sin, Half Baked, Darkhorse and Toasted.

Have you tried the Urban Decay Naked Palette?
What do you think? And what's your favourite shades to use?

Feelin' Festive




























I've been getting into the Christmas spirit by decorating the house with my family. Everywhere is looking very festive, and so i'm struggling to contain my excitement for Christmas!
 This year i've decided to do Blogmas. I will be attempting to blog every day in December, i'm really looking forward to it, expect many christmassy themed posts, as well as reviews and outfit of the days.
I hope everyone is getting into the christmas spirit like me!

Christmas is my favourite time of the year, i just love the atmosphere and how happy everyone is!
What's everyones favourite thing about Christmas?

Trying To Stay Positive


I always try and stay positive whenever I have POTS flare ups, but this past month has been extremely difficult for me to do so. It started last month when my heart rate reached a 175 bpm which is extremely high considering i'm on medication to slow it down. I ended up calling myself an ambulance as i really started to panic, and as i explained in a previous post, it was a chest infection that caused it. 
Just over a week ago, i came down with a nasty cold, pretty much as soon as i got over the chest infection, a cold is not very pleasant for anyone, but for me it hit really hard, and a few days into this cold, i'd already lost nearly 8lbs, and one evening, i ended up passing out, a few times an hour, so my mum rang for paramedics, I was extremely dehydrated, even though i had drank 2 litres of water that day, so they took me to hospital and put me on a drip to rehydrate me. I definitely felt better, and i got to go home after 2 bags of fluid, even though i was still passing out everytime i stood up!

Since then, im nearly recovered, i'm left with a tickly cough, but i'm definitely better than i was! I'm still fainting occasionally, but i seem to be recovering much quicker from them!
However all of this, has really triggered off my anxiety and panic attacks, to the point where i've been too scared to be left alone incase i pass out and don't have the energy to pick myself up!
But I know i'll get through this, it's just a difficult time, i know i'll have many ups and downs with this illness and i just need to think of the ups and know that i will get through this.

I'm really excited that it's now December, unfortunately i've been too poorly to join in with all the festive activities! Yesterday i went out with my mum, stepdad and sister to buy some christmas decorations, and i fainted in the queue! It's safe to say i'm left very bruised!

But yesterday evening i managed to help my family decorate the tree in the living room, and i also managed to decorate my bedroom! 
I will be doing a blog post on all the festive decorations around my house at some point this week! 


Much love to you all!