Happy New Year!

2014 is nearly over, which means 2015 is approaching. I can't believe how fast this year has gone!

At the beginning of the year, i made resolutions such as 'learn to drive' and 'get a full time job'. Both great resolutions, but ones that weren't achievable for me. Of course, I didn't know they weren't going to be achievable at the time.
This year hasn't been a great year for me in all honesty, my POTS has progressively got worse, which has left me housebound and unable to work for the majority of the year. I also experienced losing someone very close to me, 

Life can throw all sorts your way, but you have to learn to cope and get on with life, rather than constantly over think about what you could of changed, to prevent that thing from happening. You can't control some of the things that happen in life, which means you need to take each day as it comes and make the most of every second.
I've spent my year worrying and stressing over many things, which meant i missed a few opportunities and good things that came my way. 

I must admit, i cringe a little bit when people say 'new year, new me!' 
But a new year is a clean slate, a chance to leave a few things behind in 2014, and focus on what we're going to change in 2015 to make it a better year. 
I'm going to try and go about things a different way, look on the positive side of things rather than see the negative. I may not have physically achieved much this year, but i've changed so much mentally, I've suffered with anxiety and panic attacks for many years, all because of POTS and how horrible it makes me feel and how scary it all is sometimes. My anxiety may come and go, and at times it may be worse that others. But all the things i worry about are out of my control. My stepdad always says 'worry about the controllable, not the uncontrollable.' Like i said before, some things life throws at us we have no control over, but that doesn't mean we don't have control over the year. If you want a good year, change the way you think, do those things you've always wanted to do rather than wait around for it to happen, and be realistic! Try not to be afraid of doing the things that scare you, as it may end up being one of the best things you've ever done.

I've learnt not to take things for granted, as with POTS i am now limited to what i can do. But i'm going to focus on what i can do rather than what i can't. Focus on getting stronger, and accept that i may need a bit of help every now and then when i'm having a few bad days, rather than try and do it all myself. 

This year has made me so grateful for all the things i'm lucky enough to have, i have the most amazing friends and family, who are so supportive of everything.
I've met so many amazing people online this year, through blogging, youtube, and twitter.

I hope you all have a great New Years, make sure you fill your year full of love, laughter and happiness, and whatever life throws at you, hopefully your year will still be great!

'Tomorrow is the first blank page of a 365 page book, write a good one!'

Love to you all & Happy New Year!